what’s it like?

14 03 2009

Hi Caitlyn

Originally uploaded by legos+dream

posted by : legosdream

It’s like…
…getting this new toy that you can’t wait to play with the minute you wake up and you simply can’t stop night or day…and things, chores you have to do just takes precious time away from being with it.

It’s like…
…that line in Spanglish “Looking at you doesn’t do it, staring is the only way that makes sense”.

It’s like…
…everything everyone “warned” but nothing like everything you expected; it’s above and beyond all you could ask or imagine.

It’s like…
…like cries to our ears but music to our hearts.

It’s like…
…the stinky that you shouldn’t but savor while inhaling.

It’s like…
…getting to know the person you didn’t know you always knew.

It’s like…
…watching hours of endless nothing somethings that tug at your heart wanting more.

It’s like…
…a drug, an addiction.

It’s like…
…a love that you never thought you’re capable; helping you realize + receive a love you never thought available.

It’s awesome.





already.

2 09 2008

posted by : legosdream

Are you ready?

For next March?

That’s when baby arrives.

That’s what everyone’s asking.

Will I be ready.

Ready for the arrival.

Ready to be a father, daddy, 爸爸。

So my ready-made, generic answer’s been, “I guess I’ll be”.

Or “I’ll have to be”.

So this weekend at church I got a “bevy” of the same.

“You ready?”

“You going to be a father…”

Et cetera.

As I began to deliver more of the same, I felt an epiphanic answer come on.

I AM already.

A father.

A daddy.

A 爸爸。

At inception.

How apt, in these times of debates, conventions and election.

I am, not because I am ready.

Ready physically.

Ready emotionally.

Ready spiritually.

All that will be a life long journey.

I am, not because I am ready.

I am.

Because I’m already.